I thought I’d write this post as I’ve been reflecting a lot on my grief journey over the past couple of months. For me, it feels harder than ever. Probably because the realisation that my baby has gone is really sinking in. Where do I even start. I can honestly say I had no idea …
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Organising my baby’s funeral
So I haven’t wrote a new blog for a while. It’s been quite a hard few weeks to be completely honest. But that’s for another blog. I wanted to share my experience on organising a funeral for your own child. Obviously it was heartbreaking and something I would never want anyone to ever experience; however …
Why was my baby stillborn?
I’m yet to explain why our daughter was stillborn. And the truth is, in the beginning there were no clues as to why. When she was born, both Lottie and the placenta looked perfect. No signs of the umbilical cord being wrapped around her, no blood clots on the placenta, no nothing. We were clueless. …
A letter to my daughter
*TRIGGER WARNING* you may cry. Dear Lottie, There is so much I want to say to you. So much I never realised I would ever need to say to you. I wish you could be here with me now. I want to breathe in your baby scent. Place my finger in your grasping palms. Hold …
My labour story
This an unapologetically raw and honest account of my labour story. In 2017, my Husband Richard (then Boyfriend) and I decided that we wanted to start trying for a baby. Little did I know (I’m lying, it was obvious haha) Richard was to propose to me on my birthday that September. As a typical girl, …
About me
My name is Kaylie. I’m 26 years old and I’m Mummy to a beautiful little baby girl called Lottie Jane Paulin, who’s soul is sadly in heaven rather than here on earth. This blog is mainly for me to get the words out of my head and on to paper (or a computer screen in …
i'm still a mummy 